Thomas couldn’t help it. His first instinct was to hope it was her, call out to her. To hope that against all
odds she was there, just a few hundred yards away, waiting for him.
Teresa?
Nothing.
Teresa? Teresa!
Nothing. The abscess left when she disappeared was still in his head—like an empty pool. But … it
could be her. Might be her. Maybe something had happened to their ability to communicate.
Once the girl had stepped out from behind the building, or more likely from inside the building, she just
stood there. Despite being obscured completely by shadow, something about her stance made it obvious
she was facing them, staring at them with arms folded.
“You think that’s Teresa?” Newt asked, as if he’d read Thomas’s mind.
Thomas nodded before he knew what he was doing. He quickly looked around to see if anyone had
noticed. Didn’t seem so. “No clue,” he finally said.
“You think she was the one screaming?” Frypan asked. “It stopped right when she walked out.”
Minho grunted. “Better bet is she was the one torturing somebody. Probably killed her and put her out
of her misery when she saw us coming.” Then for some reason he clapped his hands once. “Okay, then,
who wants to go meet this nice young lady?”
How Minho could be so lighthearted at times like this just baffled Thomas. “I’ll do it,” he said, way
too loudly. He didn’t want to make it obvious that he hoped it was Teresa.
“I was just kidding, shuck-face,” Minho said. “Let’s all go over there. She could have an army of
psycho girl ninjas hiding in that shack of hers.”
“Psycho girl ninjas?” Newt repeated, his voice showing he was surprised, if not annoyed, by Minho’s
attitude.
“Yeah. Let’s go.” Minho started walking forward.
Thomas acted on a sudden and unexpected instinct. “No!” He lowered his voice. “No. You guys stay
here—I’ll go talk to her. Maybe it’s a trap or something. We’d be idiots to all go over there and fall right
into it.”
“And you’re not an idiot for going by yourself?” Minho asked.
“Well, we can’t just walk on by without checking it out. I’ll go. If something happens or gets
suspicious, I’ll call for help.”
Minho paused for a long moment. “All right. Go. Our brave little shank.” He whacked Thomas on the
back with his open palm and it stung.
“This is bloody stupid,” Newt interrupted, stepping forward. “I’ll go with him.”
“No!” Thomas snapped. “Just … let me do this. Something tells me we need to be careful. If I cry like a
baby, come save me.” And before anyone could argue, he took off at a fast walk toward the girl and her
building.
He closed the distance quickly. His shoes crunched against the gritty dirt and rocks, breaking the
silence. He sniffed the raw smells of the desert mixed with a distant scent of something burning, and as he
stared at the silhouette of the girl next to the building, he suddenly knew for sure. Maybe it was the shape
of her head or body. Maybe it was her stance, the way she held her folded arms crooked to one side, her
hip jutting the other direction. But he knew.
It was her.
It was Teresa.
When he reached a point just a few feet from her, right before the faint light would finally reveal her
face, she turned around and went through an open door, disappearing inside the small building. It was a
rectangle, a slightly tilted roof tenting in the middle, longways. As far as he could tell, it had no windows.
Large black cubes were hanging from the corners—speakers, perhaps. Maybe the sound had been
broadcast, been a fake. That would explain why they could hear it from so far away.
The door, a big slab of wood, stood all the way open and rested against the wall. It was even darker
inside than out.
Thomas moved. He walked through the door, realizing even as he did so how reckless and stupid it
might be. But it was her. No matter what had happened, no matter the explanation for her disappearance
and refusal to speak with him through their thoughts, he knew she wouldn’t hurt him. No way.
The air was noticeably cooler inside, almost moist. It felt wonderful. Three steps in, he stopped and
listened in the complete darkness. He could hear her breathing.
“Teresa?” he asked aloud, pushing away the temptation to ask for her in his mind again. “Teresa,
what’s going on?”
She didn’t respond, but he heard a short intake of breath, followed by a halting sniff, as if she were
crying but trying to hide it from him.
“Teresa, please. I don’t know what’s happened or what they did to you, but I’m here now. This is
crazy. Just talk to—”
He cut off when a light blazed to life with a quick flare that then dulled to a small flame. His eyes
naturally went straight to it, to the hand holding a match. He watched as it dropped, slowly, carefully, to
light a candle resting on a small table. When it caught, and the hand flicked the match until it went out,
Thomas finally looked up and saw her. Saw that he’d been right after all. But the short and almost
overpowering thrill of seeing Teresa alive was soon cut short, replaced by confusion and pain.
She was clean, every part of her. He’d expected her to be filthy like he must be after all this time in the
dusty desert. He’d expected her clothes to be ratty and torn. He’d expected greasy hair and a smudged and
sunburned face. But instead she wore fresh clothes; her clean hair cascaded to her shoulders. Nothing
marred the pale skin of her face or arms. She was more beautiful than he’d ever seen her in the Maze, than
any memories he could pull from the murky goop of what he’d recovered after the Changing.
But her eyes sparkled with tears; her lower lip trembled with fear; her hands shook at her sides. He
saw recognition in her eyes, saw that she hadn’t forgotten him again, but behind that there was pure and
absolute terror.
“Teresa,” he whispered, knotting up inside. “What’s wrong?”
She didn’t respond, but her eyes flickered to the side, then back to him. A couple of tears trickled out,
slipping down her cheeks, then falling to the floor. Her lips trembled even more, and her chest lurched
with what could only be a stifled sob.
Thomas stepped forward, put his hands out to her.
“No!” she screamed. “Get away from me!”
Thomas stopped—it was like something massive had just slammed him in the gut. He held his hands up.
“Okay, okay. Teresa, what …” He didn’t know what to say or ask. Didn’t know what to do. But that
terrible feeling of something breaking inside him intensified, threatened to choke him as it swelled in his
throat.
He stilled, scared to set her off again. All he could do was lock eyes with her, try to communicate how
he felt, beg her to tell him something. Anything.
A very long moment passed in silence. The way her body shook, the way she almost seemed to struggle
against something unseen … it reminded him of …
It reminded him of how Gally had been acting, right after they’d escaped from the Glade and he’d
entered the room with the woman in the white shirt. Right before everything had gone crazy. Right before
he’d killed Chuck.
Thomas had to speak or he’d burst. “Teresa, I’ve thought about you every second since they took you
away. You—”
She didn’t let him finish. Rushing forward, she was in front of him in two long strides and reaching out,
grabbing his shoulders and pulling herself close to him. Shocked, Thomas wrapped his arms around her
and squeezed, embracing her so tightly he suddenly worried she couldn’t breathe. Her hands found the
back of his head, then the sides of his face, making him look at her.
And then they were kissing. Something exploded within his chest, burning away the tension and
confusion and fear. Burning away the hurt of seconds earlier. For a moment it felt like nothing mattered
anymore. Like nothing would matter ever again.
But then she pulled away. She stumbled backward until she hit the wall. The terror returned to her face,
possessed it like a demon. And then she spoke, her voice a whisper but laced with urgency.
“Get away from me, Tom,” she said. “All of you need to get … away … from me. Don’t argue. Just
leave. Run.” Her neck tensed with the effort to get those last few words out.
Thomas had never hurt so badly. But he shocked himself by what he did next.
He knew her now, remembered her. And he knew that she was telling the truth—something wasn’t right
here. Something was terribly wrong—far worse than he’d first imagined. Staying, arguing with her, trying
to force her to come with him would be a slap in the face to the incredible amount of willpower it
must’ve taken her to break away and warn him. He had to do what she said.
“Teresa,” he said. “I’ll find you.” Tears now welling in his own eyes, he turned from her and ran from
the building.
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